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buckyball pyramid

buckyball pyramid, originally uploaded by hep.

sup lj.

i have been super busy this last week or so. we had out of town company (yuriy's sister visiting and my high school best friend and her husband), visiting the family's new baby, and on Christmas Day my aunt died after a long battle with illness, so services had to be organized, attended, and all of the details handled. it is a bittersweet time, my uncle is pretty upset having lost his ex-wife (who he was still very close with) and the children from the two of them are obviously also shattered. however said uncle also just because a first-time grandpa of kale, from his son by a previous marriage (he has like 15kids from like 4 diff women, it's complicated. multiple children with multiple partners is a family tradition), so emotions are all over the map. i am most worried about my two cousins. the older one also just lost friends in a south city shooting, and i am worried he is going to backslide into reckless danger seeking behavior. (the fact that all of us cousins made it past 18 without stints in jail longer than 6mo (aside from marto but that was complicated) sometimes amazes me considering what we were getting up to as younger kids.) the younger cousin is obviously completely at a loss for how to handle this, and totally denied any real support network that understands children beyond me and his half-sisters. so i am just trying to get them to bring him over him over as much as i can to provide at least one place of stability and refuge that he can be at. it is times like this that i most miss my grandmother because i feel like in her absence this kind of support and stuff falls to me as the only other actual responsible party in the immediate area, in this family. so if you have a moment today, keep my cousins zak and rio in your thoughts. i don't want to see my cousins so devastated by this (expected but still) tragedy to the point where they can never get past it and try and live their lives.

also, i am not posting this for sympathy so you don't have to feel compelled to leave condolences. just as a general "this is why i have kind of been MIA" and a general venting about worrying about my cousins. i really really don't want to see anything bad happen because of these tragic events. i love my family so much and i feel i have to be the responsible lookout nowadays.
thank you so much sweetie. i am happy for her that she finally found peace. being sick is a long hard road.
I'm sorry about your aunt, Hep. I hope the cousins can pull through. And I feel for you, having to be responsible for the whole family. That takes a toll, I know.

BTW, nice pyramid. Erik LOVED those. He played with them in the bath.
I know you weren't asking for sympathy, but I am sorry about your aunt, really. :( I hope your cousins can pull through this. I am sure they will look back on this and remember that you and your family were there for them.

Hang in there.
Crappy =(

On the bright side, BuckyBalls are awesome (I have the black ones) but will cause you to get pulled aside in the airport if they're in your carry-on.
lol good to know! i already get pulled aside cuz i carry film with me everywhere and will FLIP OUT if they try and send it thru xray. so i usually get extra screening. plus i think i am on the SSSS list.
When I used to travel with film they'd always give me shit because I want it hand scanned. I don't care if it's not ISO 800 or fancy film, it's not getting X-rayed
yeah i have been screwed more than once by letting it get xrayed and having it come out mildly fogged. which is no biggie at 4x6 but you start blowing that shit up to full-page sized and it's obvious that it's either fogged or underexposed. i always packed it according to regs for non-xraying (in clear film canisters in a clear plastic bag) but they would gimme shit anyway. dicks!
They're lazy and don't want to take the two minutes to hand swab 10 rolls or so. I've argued with a few of them when they insist that I should put it through x-ray. Um, no, I will not.