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so i am posting it here. this is zoe in her new cheerleading uniform for her high school, which coincidentally is my old high school! she has been working hard already on learning routines and cheers. they practice all summer getting ready for the first week of school games, at least 3 days a week, and many weeks it will be a full 5 days. she is so excited, the only reason i can't post this on fb is because some of her friends have me friended, and she does not want pics up until she receives her poms and hairbows. she also said her hair looks bad here, but i cannot see anything wrong with an adorable sbun (recommendation coined this phrase as the name of a side bun). unfortunately i am too busy for a real entry right now, i have a ct scan in 2hr that i need to get ready for. fyi still no answers and at this point i have seen over 20 specialists, had 4 kinds of scans, and talked with three surgeons. it's driving me up the wall. as my pcp said, for most people with unfindable ailments, they come in with pain but no other real symptoms. for me i have an actual physical mass larger than my thumb, but it's in such a weird place where so many organs cross (anterior cul-de-sac and the anterior abdominal wall fyi) that it could really be anything. so, onwards i trudge. hope you are all doing well in lj land.

also please excuse the state of my living room in this jpg. between all the drs appts, zoe's confirmation, her graduation, shooting the grad dance (tmrw!!) cleaning out my aunt's mother in law's house over the last few weeks, and completely redoing the girls bedroom, i have not had time to clean hardly at all. in fact, i currently have two dressers sitting in the middle of my living room. here is hoping that with the end of school, i get a little more free time, or at least take a little less on my plate.