pacman inkee


sept 13, nevar forget

the 15th annv of the day tupac died. where were you when you heard the news?

lyrics. the first verse has always been my favorite:

The only way to change me is let me blow my brains out
stuck in the middle of the game to get the pain out
Pray to my God everyday but he don't listen
the poverty bothers me but mama's working wonders in the kitchen
Listen I can hear her crying in the bedroom
praying for money we never think would she be dead soon
Am I wrong for wishing I was somewhere else
I'm 13 can't feed myself
Can I blame daddy 'cause he left me
wish he would've helped me
too much like him 'til my mama don't love me
On my own at a early age gettin' paid
and I'm strapped so I'll never be afraid
Where did I go astray I'm hanging in the back streets
running with G's and dope fiends will they jack me?
Can't turn back my eyes on the prize
I got nothing to lose
everybody gotta die
say good-bye to the bad guy
that one you fucked when you passed by
Buck buck [gunshots] from a Glock
let the glass fly
Do or Die walk a mile in my shoes
and you'd be crazy too
with nothing to lose

is there a ton of misogyny in tupac's lyrics some times? of course, but that doesn't negate the fact that he was incredibly articulate on the subject of growing up in abject poverty in the inner cities of the bay area. whenever people start telling me that of course they have listened to hiphop and they KNOW its all just about guns and violence, i use his lyrics as an example that they are dumbfuck pieces of shit who are usually racistly making assumptions. "letter to the president" is still so spot on some 15+yr later and changes is also still so very fucking relevant (even tho it contains the lines "And although it seems heaven sent / We ain't ready, to see a black President, uhh" which was sampled in nas's "black president".) and is one of the many songs to predict the manner of tupac's death. you tell me how these lyrics couldn't be dropped today and still be totally applicable. this song is one of the most beautiful songs i know, and it never fails to make me tear up by the end:

"o/~ And still I see no changes, can't a brother get a little peace
It's war on the streets and a war in the Middle East
Instead of war on poverty they got a war on drugs
so the police can bother me
And I ain't never did a crime I ain't have to do
But now I'm back with the blacks givin it back to you
Don't let 'em jack you up, back you up
crack you up and pimp smack you up
You gotta learn to hold ya own
they get jealous when they see ya with ya mobile phone
But tell the cops they can't touch this
I don't trust this when they try to rush I bust this
That's the sound of my tool you say it ain't cool
My mama didn't raise no fool
And as long as I stay black I gotta stay strapped
And I never get to lay back
Cause I always got to worry 'bout the payback
Some buck that I roughed up way back
Comin back after all these years
Rat-a-tat-tat-tat-tat, that's the way it is, uhh o/~

rip hermano.
You might like a few artists that M is very fond of - he loves Tupac, so maybe some of his other favourites might appeal to you...

The Herd

(This is a hiphop cover of an older song by a group called Redgum, but...yes. Very good interpretation, and expanded so much. The end hits like a ton of bricks.)

Hilltop Hoods (Restrung Remix - with the Adelaide Symphony Orchestra)

Bliss n Eso

Drapht (this one just makes him laugh, it's like the complete opposite of the I AM SO PIMPING, YOU WISH YOU WERE ME bullshit a lot of bad hiphop can turn into)

There's also the Cat Empire, but that's sort of cross-genre hiphop/jazz
i am going to listen to all of these all day!! tell him (and to you too!) thanks!!
You like, huh?

They've all got a fair amount of stuff available on itunes, so have a look :)
he really was a srs fox. i always just love how he is able to break complicated concepts down to a very tight rhyme that is also 100% legit on what it's saying. it's easy to make rhymes about say getting bitches and money, but making a tight song about the dichotomy faced as a poc in the inner city, the way your peers and society both see you, that some sick fucking talent.

i was lucky enough to grow up in the bay where tupac was played everywhere, and played everywhere so we got to see him like 50x before he died. he will always be our boy.
not as lucky as my roomate who was in high class in hs. the girls love hearing (because, as we are huge fans of tupac so are they) that their dad hung out with tupac in high school. one of the very very very few times i envy him going to school in marin hehe!
i dont think i ever went to high school w/ someone famous. i did go to the high school one of my kids is going to tho. and 5 generations of my family went to the same elementary and middle school. so that's something!
i have never been into this so don't get mad at me but my humanities teacher said today that tupac grew up fairly middle class and then 'returned to his roots' or something…???
lol what? living in marin does not always equate to middle class. his mom has *just* got out of jail when he was born (she was one of the black panthers the gov went after for conspiracy), and was on drugs for awhile when he was growing up. he lived in marin city as a young teen, one of the worst, most ignored areas of poverty in the entire bay area, made all the more terrible by being directly next to sausalito and the giant shopping town of corde madera. he was always lucky enough to go to great schools because he was such a talented performer at a young age, but his actual living conditions were a variety of makeshift situations and such. you can read about his early life here. i would say its more the other way around. he came from a pretty impoverished situation, but by his late teens was making decent money to relocate himself from those conditions by rapping, acting, and being a backup dancer for DU.
I'm really tempted to announce this days importance over the intercom system at work and then play some tracks for everyone. Maybe today is a good day for the AI to learn about Tupac.

So, speaking of quality hiphop, what are your thoughts on the Doomtree collective?
the only real midwesty hiphop i have gotten into is atmosphere and some of the other def jux kids. i really mostly listen to local stuff because otherwise i don't understand the slang or where they are talking about heh! i will check them out tho!
Doomtree is some good stuff, the way they approach how they produce the albums and work with each other is excellent. I also have a massive crush on Dessa, she's brilliantly awesome.
i was in high school, and i skipped the rest of the day and smoked weed after we heard
At the time of his death the only Tupac song I could recognise was California Love. But the media, and some friends reactions made me realise that someone big had passed away.

But it was first when Changes came out, and I paid attention to the lyrics, that I got why he's so revered.
Westside innuendokitten!!!
Lesser known fact about me...I'm a big Tupac fan although my favorites are some of his lesser known stuff like Toss It Up and Me and Girlfriend and Heaven Ain't Hard 2 Find.

Thanks for remembering. Westside for life!
Re: Westside innuendokitten!!!
dude he is *so hot* in the toss it up video. i remember seeing that and being like, damn son, bay area's boy is GROWN. UP.

you are totally down with his slow jams, that's so innuendocray!
I seriously cried when I heard. My mom was like "WTF is wrong with you?" And I was like "OMG MOM. IT'S 2PAC!" and she rolled her eyes and I continued crying.
OMG YES, I LOVE Changes.

But why the fuck did they have to disgrace it with fucking Comic Sans?!?!