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still in recovery

zopo by hep
zopo, a photo by hep on Flickr.

so i will still be doing memes. i am appalled and upset about the workings of this country this week, but i am unable to speak coherently on those topics until i am in a little less pain and a little clearer headspace. so until then, there is this. Pick however many you want, leave the numbers in the comments, and I'll answer it, if it applies to me. :)

1. Sexual orientation
2. What I'm really bad at
3. The one person whose arms I'd like to be in
4. My best first date
5. A description of my self-esteem
6. Who my best friends are
7. My favorite book
8. Biggest turn offs
9. A description of my best friend
10. My favorite animal
11. Someone I miss
12. The reason behind my last break up
13. What I did yesterday
14. What my greatest achievements are
15. A description of the person I dislike the most
16. My favorite songs right now
17. How my last kiss went down
18. What I find attractive in the preferred sex
19. All of the pets I've ever had
20. Favorite flavor of ice cream
21. The one place I want to be right now
22. The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me
23. Where I have lived before
24. I'll love you if...
25. What are my future plans
26. An internal conflict I have with myself
27. What I'm doing tomorrow
28. What I want to be when I get older
29. Most embarrassing moment
30. Two of my insecurities
31. What I would do if I won the lottery
32. A description of the boy I like
33. What I love most about myself
34. My biggest pet peeves
35. What bands I've seen live
36. Who my best friends are (duplicate of #6)
37. How many kids I want in the future
38. My idea of a perfect date
39. What I'm really good at
40. Most traumatic experience
41. Where I would like to live
42. The nicest thing anyone's ever said to me
43. Do I like where I am right now?
44. What I can hear right now
45. My relationship with my sibling(s)
46. All of the pets I've ever had (duplicate of #19)
47. My biggest worry currently
48. Something I've wished for repeatedly
49. My relationship with my parents
50. What words make me the best about myself (huh?)
51. Something I should have said a long time ago
52. What my last text message says
53. What I hate most about myself
54. Biggest turn ons
55. What words upset me the most
56. What I hate/d the most about school

4. My best first date: i hardly ever go on dates. i always date guys from online, and i am almost always the initiator and aggressor. so i don't have a lot of first dates to compare. probably yuriy and my first real date. i went down to visit him in socal and he took me to this place with a ferris wheel that we rode (i love ferris wheels, i like to be high up because i am a shorty) and a giant turtle statue that i climbed on. it was super fun. later i drank some of his drink and puked and he took a pic of it. that sounds like a terrible thing, but as i am a born troll this is the moment i knew i could love him forever.

43. Do I like where I am right now?: right now i am in my bed which i love. in life i am also in a place i love. surgery aside, and even my constant, constant, faster than an FTL neutrino business, i really love my life. i get to live in the best place in the world, i love my job even tho i also love bitching about it, i love my kids and they are super fun, we do fun shit like 90% of the time (10% real work) and i feel like i am giving positively of myself to things i want to thrive and support. creatively i feel very balanced between work and my own stuff. as soon as this surgery is behind me i anticipate my best, most flawless holiday season ever. i am going to have shit TOGETHER this year j0~!

44. What I can hear right now: i live right next to SFO airport so a plane just went over head. we are watching colbert on tv. the dog is running around on the deck clicking her nails checkin out raccoons creeping around over the fence. tapping of two keyboards because yuriy just got home. the hum of two computers, and the sounds of zane listening to (terrible) music through the door from the living room. through the open outside door i can hear the freeway way far off (like the susurration of the ocean with occasional bigrig horns which remind me of foghorns).