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still in recovery

zopo by hep
zopo, a photo by hep on Flickr.

so i will still be doing memes. i am appalled and upset about the workings of this country this week, but i am unable to speak coherently on those topics until i am in a little less pain and a little clearer headspace. so until then, there is this. Pick however many you want, leave the numbers in the comments, and I'll answer it, if it applies to me. :)

1. Sexual orientation
2. What I'm really bad at
3. The one person whose arms I'd like to be in
4. My best first date
5. A description of my self-esteem
6. Who my best friends are
7. My favorite book
8. Biggest turn offs
9. A description of my best friend
10. My favorite animal
11. Someone I miss
12. The reason behind my last break up
13. What I did yesterday
14. What my greatest achievements are
15. A description of the person I dislike the most
16. My favorite songs right now
17. How my last kiss went down
18. What I find attractive in the preferred sex
19. All of the pets I've ever had
20. Favorite flavor of ice cream
21. The one place I want to be right now
22. The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me
23. Where I have lived before
24. I'll love you if...
25. What are my future plans
26. An internal conflict I have with myself
27. What I'm doing tomorrow
28. What I want to be when I get older
29. Most embarrassing moment
30. Two of my insecurities
31. What I would do if I won the lottery
32. A description of the boy I like
33. What I love most about myself
34. My biggest pet peeves
35. What bands I've seen live
36. Who my best friends are (duplicate of #6)
37. How many kids I want in the future
38. My idea of a perfect date
39. What I'm really good at
40. Most traumatic experience
41. Where I would like to live
42. The nicest thing anyone's ever said to me
43. Do I like where I am right now?
44. What I can hear right now
45. My relationship with my sibling(s)
46. All of the pets I've ever had (duplicate of #19)
47. My biggest worry currently
48. Something I've wished for repeatedly
49. My relationship with my parents
50. What words make me the best about myself (huh?)
51. Something I should have said a long time ago
52. What my last text message says
53. What I hate most about myself
54. Biggest turn ons
55. What words upset me the most
56. What I hate/d the most about school

12. The reason behind my last break up: we were going different places in life and i wanted to break things off before they became even harder and more complicated to sever. we could have still been good friends, but i think it was too hard for him to deal with the fact that i get over things quickly and was able to move on almost immediately. in my defense tho, i was mentally and emotionally preparing for the breakup for about the last 6mo of our relationship because i knew it was going to end that way considering both of our short and longterm goals.

30. Two of my insecurities: because i am a teen parent i am always insecure about how other people perceive me as a parent. not of my parenting itself, but i know that a lot of the other moms in the pta and stuff will always look down on me because i was so young, and being a teen parent is considered a hallmark of irresponsibility, when really its an act of ultimate responsibility because you are taking responsibility for that potential outcome of having sex. but because society hates being confronted with the fact that teenagers will procreate, and the fact that society labels getting an abortion or adoption as the "responsible" choice, i will always be inferior to a lot of them even tho the end result is that 99% of the time i am probably the better parent. i also get artistically insecure a lot because i am superstitious that i only have like, a certain "amount" of talent in me, and i will end up using it up. logically i know this is silly, but sometimes during periods of burnout it's a hard thought to get away from.