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still in recovery

zopo by hep
zopo, a photo by hep on Flickr.

so i will still be doing memes. i am appalled and upset about the workings of this country this week, but i am unable to speak coherently on those topics until i am in a little less pain and a little clearer headspace. so until then, there is this. Pick however many you want, leave the numbers in the comments, and I'll answer it, if it applies to me. :)

1. Sexual orientation
2. What I'm really bad at
3. The one person whose arms I'd like to be in
4. My best first date
5. A description of my self-esteem
6. Who my best friends are
7. My favorite book
8. Biggest turn offs
9. A description of my best friend
10. My favorite animal
11. Someone I miss
12. The reason behind my last break up
13. What I did yesterday
14. What my greatest achievements are
15. A description of the person I dislike the most
16. My favorite songs right now
17. How my last kiss went down
18. What I find attractive in the preferred sex
19. All of the pets I've ever had
20. Favorite flavor of ice cream
21. The one place I want to be right now
22. The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me
23. Where I have lived before
24. I'll love you if...
25. What are my future plans
26. An internal conflict I have with myself
27. What I'm doing tomorrow
28. What I want to be when I get older
29. Most embarrassing moment
30. Two of my insecurities
31. What I would do if I won the lottery
32. A description of the boy I like
33. What I love most about myself
34. My biggest pet peeves
35. What bands I've seen live
36. Who my best friends are (duplicate of #6)
37. How many kids I want in the future
38. My idea of a perfect date
39. What I'm really good at
40. Most traumatic experience
41. Where I would like to live
42. The nicest thing anyone's ever said to me
43. Do I like where I am right now?
44. What I can hear right now
45. My relationship with my sibling(s)
46. All of the pets I've ever had (duplicate of #19)
47. My biggest worry currently
48. Something I've wished for repeatedly
49. My relationship with my parents
50. What words make me the best about myself (huh?)
51. Something I should have said a long time ago
52. What my last text message says
53. What I hate most about myself
54. Biggest turn ons
55. What words upset me the most
56. What I hate/d the most about school

14. What my greatest achievements are: that one is definitely my kids. they are awesome, almost grown, and are going to be phenomenal and take over the world when they eventually enter out into it.

38. My idea of a perfect date: going to anything with a ferris wheel. or something giant and quasi industrial that i can climb on and take pictures of.

49. My relationship with my parents: this one is hard. my relationship with them all (i have three parents, a father, a mother, and a stepfather) is all pretty positive as of now. now that the kids are almost grown and doing so well my parents accord me a lot more respect and legitimacy than they did when the kids were tiny, because back then i was a fuck up of a teen parent, and not a teen parent who rose up and raised kids despite hard circumstances. my mom and i have a particularly rough relationship over the years, her mental illness often gets in the way of our relationship. my father and i have always been super close despite his complete inability to be emotionally open about ANYTHING. we are very alike in that tho. my stepdad and i have always been best friends. we get along super well, more like colleagues than a father/daughter type of relationship. we like the same music, same bands, we used to go to a lot of shows together when i was young.
How old were you when you had your first kid?

Your father and mine sounds quite similar. But I'm glad you're having positive relationships with all three of them at the moment.
woops forgot one!

53. What I hate most about myself: my complete inability to be artistically satisfied. the second i feel that i have adequately shot something i forget about it and move on to something new that is hard to shoot. like i literally forget everything i just did, half the time i photograph things i don't even ever look at the images, i just drop them in archives and move on. i wish i could feel that satisfaction of having shot something for a bit longer instead of immediately feeling inadequate about whatever i am planning on shooting next. i've been shooting pro for like 15yr now, you would think i would get past this art school thesis style of shooting by now. i hear it's common in most artists tho to constantly be your own hardest critic.
i hear it's common in most artists tho to constantly be your own hardest critic.

I hear you. At least I got that part of being artistic down pat.

And isn't what you're describing in fact one of the problems especially with digital photography. Images stored away in a folder somewhere and seldom brought back to be seen. I've looked more at the photos my parents took of my youth than what I've shot myself over the 5 years I've had digital cameras.
i do it with film too tho. it's more of like, the second that i KNOW i finally captured something exactly how i wanted to, i am no longer interested in it. so most of the time i never even go back over the images. i just move on to the next challenging thing.